orange rocks my life

sick and tired of my comp. kept lagging out. darrnnn when i go ngee ann polytech nx yr.. i'll make sure i get a non-ap laptop. bwahaha. anyway tmr gt eng test and chi ting xie. correctionss liao lar.. hahaha played 3 games of dota. haha stunned. sian arhhh nth to say le.. not the end of the worldd!!

i haven't been blogging for the past one week. been on dota. ya kind of..tired of it? cos always never help team instead hai4 them. sian.. for the past one week since sch reopened, i have been slacking. ya ya its my forte. hai. still in holidays mood. the best day of the past week was most probably sunday night. i went to play basketball with ahpok jianming nigel yvonne kaixuan. sian. lost to a bunch of girls whom we played with before. ya maybe was too tired. ya suddenly feel so lost.

then homework. still trying to copy chi tys. tmr physics test and i haven't really study. sleep first then mug during midnight. tired. physically and mentally drained. yah july and august never fails to make me feel so.. argh. hahahahaahaahahahahahahhahahahhaha sian. physics time. not typing anyMORE..

_{i'm still trying to let go to something so important.. which i have been holding onto for the past.. 1+ yr. a few days to 2 yrs. sometimes i can't help but wonder if i will still receive an ecard from you..wishing me happie bday. even an email will do. seeing you, still using the email address i helped you create gave me a little comfort. and a little illusion. but im not so dumb.. cos i know everything wouldn't be the same again. i'm the one who has been holding on. no matter how loud i laugh how crazy i can be..i never fail to think abt our past each day. haahaa i may be dumb looking at the phone waiting for a call.. i may be dumb trying to check email everyday just in case.. okay just admit i'm dumb. i just want an explanation from you. yet, you can offer me..nothing. great comfort.}

谁还记得 是谁先说永远的爱我
以前的一句话 是我们以后的伤口
过了太久 没人记得当初那些温柔
我和你手牵手 说要一起走到最后
我们都忘了 这条路走了多久
心中是清楚的 有一天 有一天都会停的
让时间说真话 虽然我也害怕
在天黑了以后 我们都不知道会不会有以后
谁还记得 是谁先说永远的爱我
以前的一句话 是我们以后的伤口
过了太久 没人记得当初那些温柔
我和你手牵手 说要一起走到最后
我们都累了 却没办法往回走
两颗心都迷惑 怎么说 怎么说都没有救
亲爱的为什么 也许你也不懂
两个相爱的人 等对方先说找分开的理由
谁还记得爱情开始变化的时候
我和你的眼中 看见了不同的天空
走的太远 终于走到分岔路的路口
是不是你和我 要有两个相反的梦
谁还记得 是谁先说永远的爱我
以前的一句话 是我们以后的伤口
过了太久 没人记得当初那些温柔
我和你手牵手 说要一起走到最后

谁还记得 是谁先说永远的爱我
以前的一句话 是我们以后的伤口
过了太久 没人记得当初那些温柔
我和你手牵手 说要一起走到最后
我们都忘了 这条路走了多久
心中是清楚的 有一天 有一天都会停的
让时间说真话 虽然我也害怕
在天黑了以后 我们都不知道会不会有以后
谁还记得 是谁先说永远的爱我
以前的一句话 是我们以后的伤口
过了太久 没人记得当初那些温柔
我和你手牵手 说要一起走到最后
我们都累了 却没办法往回走
两颗心都迷惑 怎么说 怎么说都没有救
亲爱的为什么 也许你也不懂
两个相爱的人 等对方先说找分开的理由
谁还记得爱情开始变化的时候
我和你的眼中 看见了不同的天空
走的太远 终于走到分岔路的路口
是不是你和我 要有两个相反的梦
谁还记得 是谁先说永远的爱我
以前的一句话 是我们以后的伤口
过了太久 没人记得当初那些温柔
我和你手牵手 说要一起走到最后

Have you ever:

1. snuck out of the house [lol sort of]
2. gotten lost in a city ruins [no]
3. seen a shooting star [dont think so. mark lee?]
4. had a serious surgery [LOL nope.]
5. gone out in public in my pajamas [LOL when i was young?]
6. kissed a stranger [nah]
7. hugged a stranger [nah]
8. been in a fist fight [ya]
9. been arrested [LOL. er no. i'm a good citizen!]
10. laughed and had milk/coke green tea come out of my nose [ LOL. noooo gross!]
11. pushed all the buttons on an elevator [LOL you bet.]
12. swore at my parents [ ya many times]
13. been in love [haha i don't think so.]
14. been close to love [guess so. perhaps i fantacised ALL that since that guy doesnt seem to rmb.]
15. been to a casino [nah]
16. been skydiving [no.. =(]
17. broken a bone [LOL NO!]
18. been high [and low]
19. skinny-dipped [?]
20. skipped school [LOL you bet!]
21. flashed someone [LOLOLOLOLOL]
22. seen a therapist [nope]
23. played spin the bottle [yah]
24. gotten stitches [yeah]
25. drank a whole gallon of milk/water in one hour [LOL how much is a gallon?]
26. bitten someone [ya! haha]
27. been to Disneyland [nah..]
28. gotten the chicken pox [ya]
29. kissed a member of the same sex [lol can't rmb]
30. crashed into a friend's car [nope]
31. been to Japan [nah!]
32. ridden in a taxi [bwahaha yah=.0]
33. shoplifted [no]
34. been fired [..]
35. had a crush on someone of the same sex [no way]
36. had feelings for someone who didn't have them back [hahaha what kind of feelings?]
37. stolen something from my school [lol magnesium strips?]
38. gone on a blind date [no]
39. lied to a friend [guess so, white lie.]
40. had a crush on a teacher [yah my p2 form]
41. celebrated mardi-gras in new orleans [nah]
42. been to Europe [no]
43. slept with a co-worker [!]
44. been-almost-married [!]
45. gotten divorced [!]
46. had children [!]
47. seen someone die [..hai]
48. had a close friend die [.]
49. been to Africa [no! haha]
50. driven over 400 miles in one day [i don't even drive]
51. been to Canada [no]
52. been to Mexico [no]
53. been on a plane [no, sad.]
54. seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show [no]
55. thrown up in a bar [no]
56. purposely set a part of myself on fire [LOL ya]
57. eaten Sushi [ya]
58. been snowboarding and skiing [er no]
59. met someone in person from the internet [lol ya]
60. lost a child [no]
61. gone to college [not yet. going to ;)]
62. graduated college [lol-.-]
63. done hard drugs [NO!]
64. tried killing myself [no.]
65. fired a gun [no.]
66. purposely hurt myself [lol]
67. taken painkillers [panadols]
68. miss someone right now [lol ya]
69. tried to wash away some feelings by banging myself on the wall [haha i try other ways.

lol.

food for thought. ;)

hmm just read someone's blog. haha a junior whom i don't really know. know her by name only. but her blog stuns me. one or two entries with vulgarities is still okay. but almost all her entries contain that f*word. LOL not that i'm interferring with her choice of words. but i think she used vulgarities cos they think they're cool. haha. but she is making me laugh my lungs out. somemore she used vulgarities over minute things. haha. that's not the point YET. the point is i think she is trying to imitate famous bloggers like xiaxue.blogspot.com or kennysia. haha for those who don't know who they are, its okay. they're not exactly popular but people who worships them are most probably dumdums without their own style. (watched too much flintstone. dumdumdumdum) ha, i'm not going to mention her name not because i'm afraid she will cry.. its because i'm just stating my thoughts in my own blog, but not at the expense of tarnishing her reputation.

yeah! 1 more day to sch reopens. and i'm left with so much homework. yesterday peck smsed me asked me what hw to do for geog. haha stunned. immediately called qianzhi. found out we have to do one development assignment. wahh sian. added on to my pile of homework. haha. lets see..

i'm left with
1) 2 chem tropical
2) 1 chem organic ws
3) 4/5 of amaths ws
4) 3 ss qns
5) 2 chinese compres
6) 1 geog ws

and much of the homework i claimed that i have completed are either half-done or there are blanks here and there. haha. sigh. this isn't a very fruitful holiday for me. but at least i got to sleep late for the past one month. x) haha

aha. i found someone to lend me wc3 cd and that's daniel! but he can only lend me when school reopens. ha. prediction: i wouldn't have much time to play.. or maybe i wouldn't even have the time to install. but hecks. 50+ days to prelims. 2 days to sch reopens.

lets see, what have i done for the holidays.
-work
-el camp
-tiny bit of basketball
-whining
-sleeping
-1 bbq outing 4c.
-1 lan outing dotapple.
-1 bday outing 2e.
-1 seoul outing 4c.
-homework. \ 2 reviews. many physics assignments(handed in). half of 2 emaths ex. half of 1 chem tropical revision. 1/5 of amaths ws. 1 jian bao. 1/2 of chinese tys. 1/2 of 2 eng compres. LOL and nothing else.

what am i left with?
-half of emaths. 1 and a half chem ws. 4/5 amaths ws. half of chinese tys. 1/2 of eng compres. 40 eng drafts which i don't intend to do. 1 eng longman ex. ss notes. 3 ss qns. omg. aha, i bet i couldn't finish on time.

^siaox. who can?
but anyway life is getting boring without dota.
aha. no tagboard no comments.
nono, i'm not isolating myself from the others.
i'm just plain lazy.

zzz

DAMN IT. i'm so bored. but besides that point. argh DAMN IT.
i was so bored that i downloaded gunbound to play. woah change until like other game like that. not fun. i even played hearts on my computer. and pinball. i even tried yahoo pool which was so damn lag. i mean its not my comp who lag, but the people who played with me. i'm so bored, which explains why i'm here writing this boring blog. freak.

i think im seriously in a god damn foul mood. what the hell. warcraft got deleted. tried to borrow wc3 cd but people refused to lend me. okay i can understand. why the hell he went and delete warcraft is still a mystery but i don't bother asking him so i assume. i shouldn't have host that game. but i still think it wasn't my fault. and he shouldn't delete. what the hell. freak. ha-ha. i am enjoying the life of autism. talking to anyone feels so wrong. freak. yah maybe i scare if i talk more, there is a higher chance of me offending them. freak. freak. freak.

i'm so bored. i can't play any game. and freak, there's more homework to come. i think i screwed up my own life during the holidays. what the hell. and for goodness sake, i'm not pmsing. it just feels so bored yet i have so much to do. and so much to clear. and freaking her only knows how to yell and scream and shout. nothing seems right. argh

okay i think i'm feeling hell lot better after typing this freaking entry.
but i'm still bored.

freak a friday. i hate fridays.

yesterday was a very happening day. went out with 4c'05. LOL YEAH good outing i think. LOL though many girls didn't turn up. haha i was rather surprised to see that there's more guys than girls. but anyway. yah i arrived at boon lay at 1045. LOL on time. thought i would be late. in the end sotong reached at 1115. haha we waited for some people.. then we went to seoul garden for lunch! yeah. student's special. lol then peckboon started to take out his calculator and calculate the amount of money each person has to pay. cos down there write 8.99++ mah. LOL these kind of restuarant is pian money one. LOL.hahhahaa

okay.. then we went seoul garden.. sotong micheel qianzhi and i shared a table. lol i think we are the most normal people there..cos the other 2 tables got weird things in their steamboat one. LOL haha had much fun eating with them. then after eating we went to play basketball. wahaha yah.. then hor.. the guys went played soccer mah. after awhile right they came back and sat down besides the court..talking lar.. then 2 policemen came and took down their names. LOL. and their reason was to "prove that they were there at that point of time" what the hell. i think nowadays very peacefull.. so they nothing find something to do. LOL. haha but it was pretty funny. haha

then the guys joined us in basketball and we played for awhile. ya then mingming and jialin came..we played more.. then some girls left for movie.. so we decided to play soccer. LOL. ya but in the end some of us watched 5 of them played against other people. LOL. we lost.. but haha good match lar. haha then we went off to boon lay to meet the girls. (they couldn't watch the movie i think) then we went shuhui's house to play lor. hahhaa

played bridge. then taught them asshole daidee. LOL so funny. i was a King then demoted myself slowly to a queen..to servant then to asshole. blearghz. haha okay lar i gtg le. buaix